Graphic Designer
Tuesday April 14th, 2009
28 thousand miles...
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28 thousand miles away from forever,
from love, lies and deceit
28 thousand miles away from your heart,
and your thoughts misleading mine
28 thousand miles away from sanity
and the warm place in your arms
28 thousand miles away from the start
and the breaking line I drew to you
28 thousand miles away from the sun
and the beautiful skies above me
28 thousand miles away from this world
and still dropping...
thats how I feel today.
Category: Lifestyle - Dating & Relationships
Thursday April 9th, 2009
Pfff.. its what, 1 AM now ? Yep thats how late it got. lol
Well to be honest all I did the past 3-4 months was work my ass off and come home, sleep, eat, go out a bit, then back from the top. Kinda boring... it really took out most of my creative juices, not to mention the fact that I am puking just at the thought of getting to know another average chick thats supposta impress me with her gucci clothes, big tits and all that shallow behaviour and display that makes me go vomit my guts out. I guess I've ended up in this routine place.. no up no down, just plain nothing. I'm stuck in a rut and first and foremost it hurts like hell, and second of all, I got no joy left in this world (wich is a pretty damn apocaliptic scenario there). Dunno what to do... I'm stuck in waiting for THAT someone. and the getting stuck seems to have extended to my professional career as well.. I just wanna do nothing, think about nothing till SHE comes along. Its not because I tied something to the ideea of a SHE, but rather because I cant spawn joy and beauty out of hollowness and empty hearts. cant bring something in thats not there... and what I'm hoping is to regain that through HER so I can start to feel things again... explore them, go within and maybe even deeper.
On a more professional note, I'm really happy to have come here. I know it may not seem like I'm a interactive, speakerish person, but the thing is work's got me tied down real good. I'm going to bust my balls to finish our current software project wich should be due to finish somewhere in August. I still got a ton of GUI-related polishing to do, lots of icons that need to be made, and so on and so on. The good news is that most of the work is behind me, and I'm proud to say I've handled it well for a first timer.
The design part was not my ideea nor vision but rather the techincal part of the gui... I dont feel bad about that but sometimes, it really makes me feel less of an artist/designer and more of a pixelpuser/editor. Not really my cup of tea to be honest, but thats life, we seldom get what we deserve or want and gotta settle for the unexpected.
Well to be honest all I did the past 3-4 months was work my ass off and come home, sleep, eat, go out a bit, then back from the top. Kinda boring... it really took out most of my creative juices, not to mention the fact that I am puking just at the thought of getting to know another average chick thats supposta impress me with her gucci clothes, big tits and all that shallow behaviour and display that makes me go vomit my guts out. I guess I've ended up in this routine place.. no up no down, just plain nothing. I'm stuck in a rut and first and foremost it hurts like hell, and second of all, I got no joy left in this world (wich is a pretty damn apocaliptic scenario there). Dunno what to do... I'm stuck in waiting for THAT someone. and the getting stuck seems to have extended to my professional career as well.. I just wanna do nothing, think about nothing till SHE comes along. Its not because I tied something to the ideea of a SHE, but rather because I cant spawn joy and beauty out of hollowness and empty hearts. cant bring something in thats not there... and what I'm hoping is to regain that through HER so I can start to feel things again... explore them, go within and maybe even deeper.
On a more professional note, I'm really happy to have come here. I know it may not seem like I'm a interactive, speakerish person, but the thing is work's got me tied down real good. I'm going to bust my balls to finish our current software project wich should be due to finish somewhere in August. I still got a ton of GUI-related polishing to do, lots of icons that need to be made, and so on and so on. The good news is that most of the work is behind me, and I'm proud to say I've handled it well for a first timer.
The design part was not my ideea nor vision but rather the techincal part of the gui... I dont feel bad about that but sometimes, it really makes me feel less of an artist/designer and more of a pixelpuser/editor. Not really my cup of tea to be honest, but thats life, we seldom get what we deserve or want and gotta settle for the unexpected.
